February 23, 2011

Remembering My Green Beans

And I realize just how beautiful you are and how great your affections are for me
And oh, how he loves us so, 
how he loves us so…

                                                                   -How He Loves Lyrics


I can’t believe its been two years already since I held my babies.  Today I am celebrating the birth of my Green Beans, Lily, Paige, and Rylan (along with their sister, Heidi).  Sure, its a sad story with a very unfortunate ending to have lost our children prematurely, but I am so grateful that they are a part of my life.  I am able to recognize what a true blessing they are, now that the pain and sadness has faded some.  I am honored to be their mother.  They inspire me to be a better person and to help others.  I thank God for them. 

I never imagined things turning out this way when we first decided to start having children. Not having my babies will always hurt, but I am beginning to see the good that has come from all of this.  I am truly blessed to have them in my life. 

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

                                                                         - Matthew 5:4




Remembering my Green Beans and smiling…



  1. We love them too. And you are the best Mommy they could have.

  2. Very sweet Lauren, what an amazing testimony they have given you.

  3. Remembering them with you, and praying for peace for your heart.


  4. My heart is "with" you, as we remember these sweet little lives that have touched our hearts in profound ways. They leave a beautiful legacy Lauren.


  5. they are so beautiful lauren.....

  6. Happy birthday sweet beans!
    Thinking about you guys today!
    What a perfectly said post :)

  7. Thinking of you on this day, and thinking of those amazing little angels.

    Love and prayers!

  8. Happy Birthday babies, may God watch over you all and your sister on the way as well as mommy and daddy. xoxox

  9. Happy Birthday sweet babies! Hugs to you and your mommy and daddy

  10. Thinking of you today and Happy Birthday Sweet Babies. Hugs

  11. Happy Birthday sweet beans! Thinking of you, Josh and little sister Taylor today. {{hugs}}

  12. Love that song. We're celebrating your babies with you today. Love to you!

  13. I hope it's a comforting, meaningful day for you today. :-)

  14. Praying for you today. You are such an amazing mom.

  15. Also remembering your precious babies. You are a remarkable mother Lauren. Many prayers.

  16. Happy Birthday to the Green Beans! Thinking of all of you today (and always!).


  17. BTW, the above comment was from me, not Mike, although I know he loves you guys too! (Dang him for not signing out of gmail!)

  18. I can not believe how the pictures are beautiful! I was so surprised when the girl looked really pictures in 3D ultrasounds! And you're right. This ultrasound is increasingly difficult to actually measure the parts.


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    Welcome to my life…

    Over the past three years it has been flipped upside down. I am 31 years old, and married to my hubby of three years, Josh. We have 4 beautiful angel babies, who are fondly known as our “Green Beans”. The first of my quads, Heidi, held on as long as she could and was born on January 31, 2009 after pPROMing at 17 weeks. A few weeks later, I pPROM’d with my sweet Lily. Lily, Paige, and Rylan were all born at 22 weeks on February 23, 2009. Just after being released from the hospital empty handed, I returned with a high fever and infection. Two of the nights I spent in the hospital that week, I honestly thought I was going to die. It was the sickest and most hopeless I’ve ever been. I’m pretty sure my diagnosis was a broken heart.

    Our journey to becoming parents has had its share of happiness and heartbreaks. I got through every day by staying close to Josh, friends and family, blogging, and relying on God that my future will be bright. All the love and support I’ve gotten has greatly helped me manage……I am alive and well, and want to be my absolute best as a result of this.

    On May 1st 2011, we welcomed our sweet baby girl, Taylor, into this world. She is our miracle baby and brings so much joy and happiness in our lives. She is such a gift from God.

    I have come out of all of this with a better appreciation of life. I hope to make the best of this situation by helping others who will experience a similar loss.

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