January 28, 2010

Heidi’s Heaven Day

Today is Heidi’s actual Heaven Day; the day that she went to go be with Jesus.

There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of my sweet, little Heidi in some way. Heidi was only with us for 19 weeks, but she made a very big impact on our lives, and will never be forgotten.

Heidi is a very special girl and has not one, but TWO special days to remember her by. Her Heaven Day (today) and her actual Birthday Day (01/31/09).

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Your Daddy and I are so proud of you. You were always meant to be an Angel. You did such a selfless and brave thing by leaving us to allow for your sisters and brother to have a better chance at life.

There hasn't been a day that goes by that I haven’t thought of you or were reminded of you in some way, Heidi. You made such a big impression on our lives in your short amount of time with us.

I have peace in knowing that you are a perfect Angel, and will always be. We will all be together again one day, and it will be perfect. In the meantime, I have a feeling that you’d prefer me to think of you and smile instead of being sad, so I try and do that as best as I can.

Today is your day Heidi. Your Daddy and I are thinking of you and missing you always…

Happy Heaven Day.

Jeremiah 1:5

Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
before you were born I set you apart;

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  1. God bless Heidi! Be close today, sweet girl!

    Sending loving thoughts...

  2. beautiful lauren...thinking of you...

  3. So beautiful!
    Happy Heaven Day Heidi!

  4. Happy Heavenly birthday Heidi. Hope you have a peaceful day full of love and memories. ((hugs))

  5. Lauren,

    Honoring your little girl along with you today. These dates are never easy, so know that I'm sending you love and prayers to ease your heart.

    Your letter to Heidi is beautiful and a wonderful tribute to her life. I know she is enjoying many play dates in heaven and her wings are beautiful :)

    Much love to you today and always. I continue to stand in awe of your "grace".


  6. Keeping you close in my heart & prayers! Love you guys very much and we'll always love & remember Heidi even though we were never able to meet her. I can picture her in my head & imagine how happy she is in Heaven, playing with her brother & sisters & watching down on her mommy & daddy until you can all meet one day & be together!

  7. Heidi, I bet Heaven is so beautiful and I know that you just love it there. Your mommy and daddy love and miss you and I'm so glad that they have shared you with us all.

  8. Thinking of you guys today and wishing you a peaceful night. Praying for a happy night for your little Heidi. Love, The Hills

  9. What a beautiful letter from a beautiful mommy to a precious little girl...

  10. I'm thinking about you and Josh tonight and praying for you! That is such a beautiful letter for your beautiful Angel.

  11. I've been thinking of you and Heidi today. I can't even begin to imagine the complexity of your emotions. Just know that I'm praying for you today and always.

  12. Thinking of and praying for you and Josh. Happy Heaven Day Heidi.

  13. Honoring Heidi's memory with you tonight. I just lit a candle for her. Thinking of you...

  14. You were so blessed to have Heidi in your life...she is now your sweet angel. Praying for you today!

  15. Sending a BIG hug your way! Heidi is watching down especially today!

  16. Thinking of you and remebering your sweet Heidi with you! *HUGS*

  17. I have been thinking about you all day. I held an angel today that came to soon and left brothers to still grow. I just kept thinking this was your story almost to the tea. Little did I realize it was the same day. I bet they are dancing around together.

    I am praying and thinking of you!!!! XOXOXOXO

    Happy Angel, Heaven Day Heidi! We all love you!!!!

  18. Remembering Heidi with you now and on the 31st...


  19. That was a beautiful letter to Heidi,
    Love, Mom and Dad

  20. oh sweetie- what a beautiful letter to heidi. i can't believe it's been a year. sending you much love as you remember her. (((hugs)))




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    Over the past three years it has been flipped upside down. I am 31 years old, and married to my hubby of three years, Josh. We have 4 beautiful angel babies, who are fondly known as our “Green Beans”. The first of my quads, Heidi, held on as long as she could and was born on January 31, 2009 after pPROMing at 17 weeks. A few weeks later, I pPROM’d with my sweet Lily. Lily, Paige, and Rylan were all born at 22 weeks on February 23, 2009. Just after being released from the hospital empty handed, I returned with a high fever and infection. Two of the nights I spent in the hospital that week, I honestly thought I was going to die. It was the sickest and most hopeless I’ve ever been. I’m pretty sure my diagnosis was a broken heart.

    Our journey to becoming parents has had its share of happiness and heartbreaks. I got through every day by staying close to Josh, friends and family, blogging, and relying on God that my future will be bright. All the love and support I’ve gotten has greatly helped me manage……I am alive and well, and want to be my absolute best as a result of this.

    On May 1st 2011, we welcomed our sweet baby girl, Taylor, into this world. She is our miracle baby and brings so much joy and happiness in our lives. She is such a gift from God.

    I have come out of all of this with a better appreciation of life. I hope to make the best of this situation by helping others who will experience a similar loss.

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