Still lots to be thankful for in 2009...
(Trying) to focus on all the good.





Wishing they were with us today and hoping for a better 2010.

Hi Bloggers, I've missed you! I've been gone for the past week visiting with family and site seeing all over Illinois. The first couple of days of our trip, we stayed in Chicago. Josh's cousin, Gina lives there and was a great tour guide! We had a blast there, and tried to fit in as much as we could.
We enjoyed some tasty martinis at the Signature Room the first night we were there. The Signature Room is located at the top of the Hancock Building. We snagged a table that was right by the floor to ceiling windows. Not a bad view from 96 floors up, huh?




I hope you all had a very Merry Christmas!

I used Random Number to select the winners, and THEY ARE...
Giveaway #1
The hand painted tile from Warden Graphics goes to...
Giveaway #2
The $50 Gift Certificate to Bead Creations International goes to..
Giveaway #3
The embRACE headbands and towel goes to...
Kara, Christie, and Krista, please go to my contact page by clicking HERE to email me your mailing address. Thanks!


It's my Blogger-versary! One year ago today, Josh finally convinced me to start my own blog. I was really anti-blogging before and thought - Who would want to read about me?? At the time I was about 12 weeks pregnant with the quads, and I decided to use my blog as a way to inform everyone we knew about the happenings of the pregnancy and preparing for the babies. Needless to say, this past year did not pan out the way we had hoped, but this blog has still been a huge blessing for me. I think someone looking from the outside in may ask - How does writing a blog help, and how do your blog followers become such a big support system in your life? Well, it's true. I don't know where I'd be today if it weren't for my blog and all of my wonderful followers and supporters.
The blogging world has helped me realize throughout this past year, that I am not alone. I have been sent countless letters, comments, and gifts from my followers that all mean SO much to Josh and I. One anonymous follower recently wrote me this:
Hi Lauren:"I am one of your blog followers. I just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you and your husband and think of you all often. You don't know me... I was in a baby class with you at TGH in January. I have been checking in on you to see how you have been. I just wanted to let you know that people who don't even know you have been affected by your story and we think of you often. We will be thinking of you this holiday season and will send you all of the positive thoughts we can."--Anonymous
I don't know who she is, but that meant so much to me. This is just one of the examples of the love, support, and encouragement that I get from my blog on a daily basis. So, I just wanted to let you know (my readers) how thankful I am that you care. I never realized how important the support network of the blogging world is. I have met so many nice people and families, and have been touched by your generosity and support! As a little thank you from me to you, I have arranged for some AWESOME giveaways!
Today also happens to be my day to host Tina's 25 Days of Giveaways, so I am taking care of both in this one big post! OK... now on to the fun stuff!!!
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The first of 3 giveaways is a hand painted tile from Warden Graphics. I was recently sent one and I LOVE it. I have a picture of it here. You can check out her work at: http://www.wardengraphics.com/. This will make a great gift for someone special in your life!

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Next, is a $50 gift certificate from Bead Creations International! They make amazing custom design necklaces that are perfect to get your children's names, your husband's name, your name or monogram on. Really, whatever you want! I got this one earlier this year with my babies' names on it. It lets me keep their memory close to me and it looks great too. Visit their website to pick out what you'd like: http://www.beadcreationsinternational.com/

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I am also giving away a pack of embRACE Activewear headbands and the matching towel! I was recently introduced to embRACE at a party I attended, and I loved the idea. They are all really comfortable headbands that stay in place while you workout and they look great! I own a black sequin one and a fun floral one. I wear them all the time, not only just to Pilates! Check out all of the fabric options and styles here: http://www.embraceactivewear.com

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All you need to do to be part of the giveaway is just leave me a comment and tell me what item (or items) you're interested in winning and your favorite thing about them. If you are an anonymous follower or don't have a profile, please leave me your email address in your comment or click here to email me your contact info. I will draw the winners at random on Monday night!!!!
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Again, thank you all for being "here" for me, and HAPPY BLOGGER-VERSARY!!
The first three (Heidi, Lily and Paige) have little bows on their heads. And what really got me was that Paige even has her little hand in her mouth like she always did in all of her pictures. The back reads, "Our Green Beans" and has their initials. Oh my gosh, talk about PERFECT! 
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The BIG Giveaway is on December 20th!!
Don't miss it!
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As you can see, we picked our favorite family picture from our recent photo shoot for this year's card. I love how they turned out and all, but I can't help to think of what is missing every time I look at them... We're just not complete. I wish Heidi, Lily, Paige and Rylan were in our family photo too...

Last Sunday Josh and I got to do a little photo shoot with my friend, and very talented photographer, Jen Bravo. We decided to take some shots with the pups in our neighborhood to use for our Christmas cards. ALL of the pictures turned out great, and we even got a few good shots of all four of us! I had a hard time picking just one for our Christmas cards.
Thanks again Jen and Jay, we had a lot of fun!
Here are just a few of my favs:
P.S. I added some links in the "Our Story" paragraph on the right. When Babies A, B, C, and D are mentioned, it will link you directly to each of their special posts. Their names above their pictures will also take you there. I like looking back to those posts and reading about them. Check it out some time!

As many of you know, I had a holiday themed Wine Party last night! It was tons of fun! Everyone brought a bottle of red wine of their choice, and I supplied the cheese and other appetizers. To make it a little different from my last wine party, I researched all about what wines go with what cheeses and created little cheat sheets for my guests to know what cheeses were best to sample with the wine they were drinking. I was surprised to learn that Publix carried all of the special world cheeses that I was looking for.
I got Gouda, Gruyere, Sharp Cheddar, Munster, Parmigiano-Reggiano, Camembert, and Brie. Mmm- mmm good! Some of my favorite combos were Merlot or Zinfandel with Parmigiano and Gouda.
Allison and Holly both brought over some yummy appetizers. This is Holly's Cream Cheese and Pesto Bread. It was delish!
I made this festive centerpiece out of some things I had around the house, and decorative grapes from the good ole' dollar store. I took a glass vase, added a flameless candle, and stuffed it full of grapes. Cute, huh?
ALSO, courtesy of the dollar store, I got these awesome wine glasses! Yes, just $1 each! They are huge, all glass, and really sturdy! The could easily be sold at Pottery Barn for $10 each! What a deal.
And here are all of the cheeses laid out with their labels!
Just some of the girls...
Until next time girls!!


Over the past three years it has been flipped upside down. I am 31 years old, and married to my hubby of three years, Josh. We have 4 beautiful angel babies, who are fondly known as our “Green Beans”. The first of my quads, Heidi, held on as long as she could and was born on January 31, 2009 after pPROMing at 17 weeks. A few weeks later, I pPROM’d with my sweet Lily. Lily, Paige, and Rylan were all born at 22 weeks on February 23, 2009. Just after being released from the hospital empty handed, I returned with a high fever and infection. Two of the nights I spent in the hospital that week, I honestly thought I was going to die. It was the sickest and most hopeless I’ve ever been. I’m pretty sure my diagnosis was a broken heart.
Our journey to becoming parents has had its share of happiness and heartbreaks. I got through every day by staying close to Josh, friends and family, blogging, and relying on God that my future will be bright. All the love and support I’ve gotten has greatly helped me manage……I am alive and well, and want to be my absolute best as a result of this.
On May 1st 2011, we welcomed our sweet baby girl, Taylor, into this world. She is our miracle baby and brings so much joy and happiness in our lives. She is such a gift from God.
I have come out of all of this with a better appreciation of life. I hope to make the best of this situation by helping others who will experience a similar loss.