December 30, 2009

A White Christmas

As our trip through Illinois continued, we drove about 4 hours outside of Chicago to Josh's hometown. We had good weather for our drive, but soon after we arrived it started to snow!

We decided to take advantage of the snow and go sledding, so we all bundled up and hit the hills! I realize that I look ridiculous here; I'm wearing my aunt's face mask that she uses for running. The mask is lightweight, but keeps you really warm and stays in place! I loved it, and highly recommend one to any of you who live in the cold country!


The whole gang on Christmas!

At Christmas Eve service, I didn't even know this picture was being taken, but I think it kind of captures how I was feeling that night... During the service I was really missing my babies. I was having lots of random thoughts and emotions, and battling with understanding Why ME? Why US? Why Heidi, Lily, Paige, and Rylan?

Wishing they were with us today and hoping for a better 2010.


  1. Lauren, you look gorgeous in these photos.

    I don't know why. But I know it's not fair at all.

  2. I've searched those "why's" too...

    Just know that I admire your spirit to keep moving forward, as I know it isn't easy and takes effort, but you do it graciously and give the rest of us somthing to apire to :)

    Hugs and May Life's Blessings be yours in 2010.

    Much Love

  3. You look like you had fun in the snow, and good for you as you deserve some fun and happiness after all of the heartache. Im sure the service was hard, I dont think I would make it in church. Hugs and I hope all is well for you and Josh. xoxox Nan

  4. You trip looked like a lot of fun! I wish I could of enjoyed a couple days of snow over Christmas to go sledding. =) I know 2010 is going to be an awesome year for you and Josh.

    Love you!

  5. Sledding looks like a blast! The mask is actually quite stylish if you ask me. You should see the crazy stuff I wear to stay warm when we hit the slopes. Thinking that one like your aunt's is in order before our next trip (which won't be until 2012, but still!).

    As for the last picture... It's quite telling, isn't it? You must have been feeling so much that night Lauren. I think of you and your babies all the time. Hugs.


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    Over the past three years it has been flipped upside down. I am 31 years old, and married to my hubby of three years, Josh. We have 4 beautiful angel babies, who are fondly known as our “Green Beans”. The first of my quads, Heidi, held on as long as she could and was born on January 31, 2009 after pPROMing at 17 weeks. A few weeks later, I pPROM’d with my sweet Lily. Lily, Paige, and Rylan were all born at 22 weeks on February 23, 2009. Just after being released from the hospital empty handed, I returned with a high fever and infection. Two of the nights I spent in the hospital that week, I honestly thought I was going to die. It was the sickest and most hopeless I’ve ever been. I’m pretty sure my diagnosis was a broken heart.

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