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Our journey to becoming parents has had its share of happiness and heartbreaks. I got through every day by staying close to Josh, friends and family, blogging, and relying on God that my future will be bright. All the love and support I’ve gotten has greatly helped me manage……I am alive and well, and want to be my absolute best as a result of this.
On May 1st 2011, we welcomed our sweet baby girl, Taylor, into this world. She is our miracle baby and brings so much joy and happiness in our lives. She is such a gift from God.
I have come out of all of this with a better appreciation of life. I hope to make the best of this situation by helping others who will experience a similar loss.
I'm having some trouble loading the images, but just reading what you wrote about the shadow boxes gives me an idea of how beautiful and special they are - just like your little Beans.
ReplyDeleteThanks for bringing that to my attention, Jenna. I've got tech support (aka Josh) fixing it right now. Check back in a little while and you should be able to view them.
ReplyDeleteVery beautiful!!!!
ReplyDeleteThose are great Lauren! You did a wonderful job; what a sweet tribute. And, I am so confident that someday you WILL be chasing little babes down that hallway, carrying them off to sleep, and more. I have so much hope for you guys!
ReplyDeleteLauren, those shadowboxes are beautiful. I can't believe you did those yourself. What a wonderful way to remember your "Green Beans".
ReplyDeletethey are beautiful! love them!
ReplyDeleteLauren, they are precious. Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteTHose are so beautiful! Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeletelauren, your strength is so inspirational. i bought supplies to make shadow boxes for our little ones a few months back and just haven't had it in me to put them together. I love how you made each one unique for Heidi, Lily, Paige and Rylan. And the placement in your new home sounds perfect, it can be the first thing you show your new baby/ies when you bring them home.
ReplyDeleteThey are all so beautiful and special.
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What a beautiful way to have a visual reminder of your babies! The first time I got pregnant I miscarried around 6 weeks and I made a shadow box as well. It really helped me with the grieving and healing process.
ReplyDeletecheck out my last post, you're mentioned! ;)
ReplyDeleteWhat a great way to remember your Green Beans! You will be walking down the hall with a baby, and you can show your babies the boxes! How special.
ReplyDeleteThey are wonderful tributes to your little beans.
ReplyDeleteOh Lauren, they are just gorgeous. Personalized and unique like each of your children. I feel like I know your beans so well just from reading their names and seeing their photos. What a wonderful mother you are to them, memoralizing and remembering...
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Spending time with you on Friday was wonderful as always & it felt good to get so much done. We are picture hanging masters! I'm so glad we got your precious little Green Beans on the wall for all to remember & admire! Your new house is AWESOME and I look forward to many great times there!
ReplyDeleteThe shadow boxes are beautiful. I love all the quotes you used and how each box is so unique.
ReplyDeleteJust beautiful sweetheart! I love them and cried when I saw them. xoxo Nan
ReplyDeleteLauren,
ReplyDeleteThe boxes are beautiful. What precious memories. I'm inspired!
The boxes are beautiful Lo. Can't wait to see y'all.
ReplyDeleteWow, how beautiful are those! What precious keepsakes of the GreenBeans. So glad you shared that with us!
ReplyDeleteLauren, SO BEAUTIFUL!!! thank you for sharing the photos of your shadow boxes and the descriptions- so sweet and thoughtful...and gives me some good ideas, too. :-) I hope one day you will be walking down that hallway to babies fast asleep in those bedrooms...and those babies will know how much you love their older brother and sisters...
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They look beautiful. Your new house looks amazing!!
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thats wonderful that they have a prominent spot in your new home. they deserve it. i hope you are very happy there and have many blessings in the future.
ReplyDeleteVery cute friend :)
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful way to remember the sweet "green beans". I just read your story and will be praying for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI just came upon your blog tonight and want to say I'm so sorry for your loss(es). You have four angels up in heaven to watch over you, your husband, and hopefully someday soon their siblings.
ReplyDeleteThe shadow boxes are gorgeous. In perusing your blog, I can see you are a very talented and creative lady. I couldn't resist following your blog.
Take care.
I, too just stumbled upon your blog while looking on google- I am so sorry for your losses and am very inspired by both your creativity and your strength! You definitely have the angels on your side and in your heart forever. Hopefully there are some babies in your arms in the near future because it sounds like you already are an excellent and deserving mother! Best wishes to you and your husband-
ReplyDeleteHi Lauren, I came across your blog looking for inspiration for my own angels shadow box. They are lovely. :) Such a beautiful way to remember your babies. I have a blog too, but sadly I have not had time to write on it lately. It was created in honour of my daughter Julia who was with us for only a very short time. She was born and died Christmas, 2009. We now have a rainbow baby named Lauren! She was born January of this year. Congrats on your rainbow baby Taylor! She is beautiful. Warmly, Andrea
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